Tuesday, August 4, 2015


A seminarian friend came to visit last week. In the course of our conversation, he asked: "What are you afraid of? What scares you?"

I said, "That I won't enter by the narrow gate. That I'l die without ever having truly trusted or truly surrendered."

Part of what I mean by that is I'm afraid I won't love enough! Embrace enough, praise enough, notice enough, enjoy enough.

But I'm doing my best.


  1. Luckily for you, Heather, His best is good enough :)

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  3. Beautiful! We can always do more, especially for our good God. Thank you, Heather.

  4. that is my life long fear too of being weighed in the balances found wanting for my failures at loving enough

  5. The narrow gate affords endless, and deep living compared to the broad way that leads to destruction. You would think what is broad is vast and limitless, thank you for giving new meaning to narrow gate.

  6. Yes, so interesting that the narrow gate leads to infinity! Thank you all so much. These past few months have been deep, rich, and strange. I've been "homeless" and yet never have I felt more squarely in the midst of the miracle of the loaves and the fishes. Mystery upon mystery, gift upon gift. People simply giving me the keys to their beautiful homes. Lord, I am not worthy...But then in a sense I see...we bless a place if that's not too corny with our gratitude, our orientation of heart as we move about the rooms, our appreciation for the beauty, our prayer...I'm sure I'll end up writing about it all somehow, sometime...

    Wishing you all a halcyon August. With lots of corn on the cob and ice cream.

  7. The last sentence below is comforting -- or maybe just palliative:
    “… there is another martyrdom: the martyrdom of love. Here God keeps his servants and handmaids in this present life so that they may labor for him … I am speaking, of course, of great-souled individuals who keep nothing back for themselves, but instead are faithful in love. Our Lord does not intend this martyrdom for those who are weak in love and perseverance. Such people he lets continue on their mediocre way, so that they will not be lost to him; he never does violence to our free will.”
    — In the Liturgy of the Hours today, from The Memoirs by the secretary of Saint Jane Frances de Chantal (via K-Lo@Large web log (Patheos) 8-12-15)


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